So in case you all didn't know this January I started to go to college at OTC. Its a big step for me because I didn't get the best schooling growing up with ADHD and ODD and being in special ed classes and being behind in reading and language arts. I feel the system should have fought to advance me in learning and not keep me at a comfortable level. I got thrown into Language Arts II with no buffer. It was a struggle and as much as I may not of known I do actually enjoy the subject. Don't tell my teachers lol. I don't do well in the spelling department so if that is taken out I should be okay.
On a side note my little sister has gotten her Bachelors in Psychology and Sociology and is going to try for her Masters. I tell her she did it to get help and that she should get minor in law so she could help and fight for me if that time every comes. But the two of us have talked for a couple years now. And we came up with the idea when she was done with her bachelors that she would try to help me get a degree in ASL (american sign language). Having my family and my sister stand by me has encouraged me to try to take that step. And trust and believe I did utilize her at the start. But I can hold my own and I see that now. I know shes there if I need her, I know my parents are there willing to stay up late hours into the night to help me finish editing a report. Yes, I hear the lectures but they enjoy it anyways and would do anything for me.
I've see a lot of people growing up with things I have. And not all of them grow to be able to survive on there own. I was a lucky one because my family made me who I am. I wasn't babied, I wasn't allowed to use it as an excuses regardless if it was the source of the issue I was taught to own up to my actions. I don't regret what my parents did for me. And I know as teens we say things and i'm sure my actions said other wise. But looking back as an adult I wouldn't change a thing that they did. Except include everyone in my counseling sessions to help develop the bonds that I lacked from age differences and being different.
I've had nothing but amazing instructors at OTC that want to see me succeed and is helping me to. Not only by developing a relationship but by being a friend on some level. One of the teachers encouraged me to see the school counselor after I told her about my walk out last monday. So I went and it was amazing was there almost two hours. But I now have someone who will work with me and fight with me to get someone to look farther into things rather than just say its in my head. He refereed me to have more intensive medical testings done to narrow out anything medical. To allow us to go on Psychologically. I have nothing medically wrong but all the physically symptoms are here. And someone just needs to listen and believe me so we can figure it out to help get past this hump i've been dealing with for years. Maybe just maybe my depression will finally balance out.
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