Last 5yrs Dealing With Depression Part Two

Five Years Summuary

1. Movie Gallery Closed 2010
2. Break-up and lose of Childhood Best Friend 2010
3. Losing best Childhood Female Friend 2010
4. Economy made it hard to find New Job  
5. Disney Closed Store I was Working At  2011
6. Got fired after one years work at Silver Dollar City because of my Disability   2011
7. Two years with Mcdonald's to be fired because of my Disability (Unemployment determined)  2012
8. Lost apartment because Land Lord decided they didn't like my Dog anymore.  2012
9. Weeks shy of two year marker at Price Cutters Lost job due to two and five min late and depression   2014
10. Two and half years of trips to St Louis helping Family (BFF) *Would do it all again*   2013-2015
11. Co-living with Sister and Best friend with her kids. 2013- current

I worked for all but two years at McDonalds in Branson.  I helped open that place from the ground up.  And over that first year I watched management push people out so that by the time we had our first anniversary we had under 20 people from the start date.  It started with me asking to be crossed trained into assembly and I was always ignored.  A couple of them would let me try to fit in and I could hold my own in some areas of the line.  I was the Driver Threw Cashier.  Than I was striped from that and always put into the lobby.  8 hr Shifts lobby only.  When I asked why or tried to talk to the main manager I was pushed aside and always told latter latter.  Nobody would listen to me yet I was always in trouble because others didn't like me or didn't like to work with me.  I would be told I no longer was on certain shifts or could do certain jobs because someone didn't like me yet when I ask what I did wrong they say we cant tell you.  So one day I was taking orders on the second Driver though and making frozen drinks and ice cream. And the lady taking the order on first drive through rang things up wrong and just changed computers and told me to delete things while I was taking an order and making drinks. So 5 min latter when I go to the computer I didn't remember what she said behind my back to me. Figured she just forgot to serve it to the Cashier.  So the drink was made and she wrote some large paper about how i didn't listen and when she said something to me about ruining the system they had. I said we can't change the past all we can do is move on.  So when I came to work on my next shift we had a lobby full of kids like 5 buses outside. So I clocked in and asked where I was suppose to go just kept being told to wait wait. So i went to help clear out the lobby I worked two hrs and than got pulled to the back and told I was being let go not because of my disability but because of things I didn't do.  Well went though unemployment and I had to take it to court and I actually got documents saying they fired me based on my disabilities.

The day I was let go I walked into price cutters and pretty much was offered a job on the spot.  I also went into the career center and had interviewed for Five Guys and also was offered that job.  I also got noticed on my door that I had 30 days to leave.  Five guys never worked out never got put on the schedule.  I wasn't bummed about it cause I had Carrie Underwood concert tickets just two days away.  I was excited.  Though during this short phase My ex called me up out of the blue with no knowledge or anything of what was going on.  I mean its been 3 years and 6 months since we last spoke or even saw one another.  He called and was like hey just wanted to make sure your okay and that you don't need anything like help or what not.  How did he know are we really connected like this.  Isn't this just coincidence on the time.

This was the year I got Cera my (Basset / Beagle) I saw an add on a pin up board in Branson and called the lady it was the last puppy.  I was torn between a Corgi, or a Basset.  I was doing my research and I wanted a dog to play with but would also be okay just laying around the house.  She was my birthday gift to me, she was roughly 7 1/2 -8 weeks old.  She was the best thing that I have done.  Shes been by my side I've made amazing friends though her.  She is the reason I even leave the house anymore.

I had the job with Price Cutters just shy of 2 years by like a matter of weeks. They labeled it as me being late for work as the ground in which they fired me.  Even though I was seeing a counselor and Psychologist every other week and try different meds to see if I could get the depression under control.  I told the counselor the week before I felt that I was going to be fired before my job hit two years. The next time I had a session it was me saying I was let go.  I started working under the table in Branson at a hotel making 250 week.  which was what I made at price cutters.  Was it the trips to St Louis, was it the stress of everything all together.  I think it was but I would go though it all again to help my friend out.

So I have a friend that got into some trouble and had to do some time.  I always told her that when she was ready for a change my door was open.  So she came,and that's when the trips started for St Louis. At first it was just her and I that went up every week.  And after about a month or two we were like Becky lets alternate.  2 1/2 years of back and forth.  But side not the kids are home.  And everything calmer now and happy.  We all still live together her and her three kids and my sister and I all share a place. We co-parent, and split expenses three ways.  It was rocky at first but we have found a true balance.

Living together we have our good and bad days.  Its driven me to counseling multiple times.  Not so much as anyone's fault but that there is to much to deal with and I choose to find the help that I need to cope with everything.  Nothing upsets me more than in a fight one saying the other moves out.  The roommate seems to be doing that alot lately.  Maybe she needs to just stop running away, and confront the problem.

Overall she packed up her kids and skiped out on the lease. But in the long run i'd do it all again to help her get her family back.  And in turn if Becky and I had not done this trip we wouldn't be where we are today as sisters.  Things have made a huge turn around for us.  We still fight but ultimately I know she is there for me regardless of what happens, and we are way closer than we have every been out of diapers.