Over the years i've learned its not easy for people to like me. That its hard to fit in and be accepted. Many times my mind will play games telling me I don't fit in that i'm all alone. I have learned those thoughts are just my depression playing with me. I am not perfect and I may not understand things or have the best social skills with making new friends or fitting in a crowed. But when given the oppertunity I become the most loyal and commeted freind you could ever ask for.
Those I call Friends are also what I see as family and who I would do anything for no matter what they do unto me. I've been burned, lied to, cheated, and stolen from those I thought was a friend. And i've come to understand not everyone I say is a friend tuely is and that its all one sided.
I have come to learn that for those I call friend, or Family its for the long haul for me not just when the tides change. I know thats not how others view it. But for me to call you freind means that you mean something that I want you in my life. If that friendship grows to become like family that means i'd do anything for you and want you to always be well.
I have friends who come and go more so than i'd like. It hits hard and I don't like it. I don't mean to be selfish its just friends and family is everything to me. If not for them I wouldn't be who I am today.
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